Hi Sara!,
Today I've playing against SBE, and he win. It was my first real ror game on internet.
But if I look behind and remember of the fight I have made, I realized that I'm not as bad as I thought and be proud of it. And it's a victory in itself for me!!
You don't have to be shy to play with the gang of the AOEH forum. I think that everybody here are aware of the different level of players and respect the others.
When you say "...because I don't want you to see how badly I play."
Why not!!??... I explain myself;
Me, or the others can see how you playing and can give you some constructive hints after the game. Practicing is the key, read the strats of the others...etc.
Do you feel that you make some progress in your gameplay??(managing peoples/ressources easily, more victories, etc....)
Maybe you don't play very much, and it will be an answer to my questions about your difficulty to win some games and the Battle of Mylae...
Know that me, and Peter the first, are always enjoy to know your progress in the game. Still keep your determination to win See ya!!